Lately

I've been making a lot of blogger accounts. Um....

Yes, I have reasons. The one was made in an effort to cut down on masses of unknown people going to my Livejournal only for SuiAli stuff. The other was so I had a place to put all my public reviews, reports and stuff. The others... are centered around my writing career. I also wanted excuses to use my newly downloaded layouts. *cough*

It's been two weeks now, and I still miss the SA crew. I think it's because for the first time, I didn't feel so much like an outsider around them anyway. Not going to say I didn't feel awkward at all... even left out a bit, but well, when surrounded in that situation, my side of the room so to speak is a bit lonely since I don't understand what's being said, and am never sure how these people around me are perceiving me. To an extent we all care about that... so saying I don't care isn't wholly the truth. But I also refuse to not be myself, well to an extent. I do admit to trying to be overly happy or acting like nothing was wrong even when I was feeling sick, or like crying.

But still yeah, if you're with me totally in both understanding and emotions in these things, you'd find it a bit lonely. My side always is.